The Fourth Mindfulness Training: Awareness of Suffering
Aware that looking deeply at the nature of suffering can help us develop understanding and compassion, we are determined to come home to ourselves, to recognize, accept, embrace and listen to suffering with the energy of mindfulness. We will do our best not to run away from our suffering or cover it up through consumption, but practice conscious breathing and walking to look deeply into the roots of our suffering. We know we can realize the path leading to the transformation of suffering only when we understand deeply the roots of suffering. Once we have understood our own suffering, we will be able to understand the suffering of others. We are committed to finding ways, including personal contact and using telephone, electronic, audiovisual, and other means, to be with those who suffer, so we can help them transform their suffering into compassion, peace, and joy.
The Inner Separation of Samsara and Nirvana
This is the Dzogchen teaching of Ati Yoga, focusing on the practice of inner body rushen. "Rushen" here means separating—becoming clear on what is different and what is the same, particularly in terms of samsara and nirvana.
This teaching is about karmic patterns. When you ask most scholars where all the old karma is stored, they say it is stored in the ālaya-vijñāna—or alaya—the “eight consciousness.” But that is simply Sanskrit for "karmic storehouse." But saying karmic patterns are stored in a karmic storehouse, It doesn’t really tell us much. Similarly, being told that karma is stored in the alaya doesn't give us a practical answer.
Karma is not stored in the natural state. And some texts may refer to the natural state as the alaya. But we want to be clear here that the alaya meaning karmic storehouse is not the same same as the natural state in Dzogchen. However, you may have noticed that you experience patterns. You have certain ways you consistently relate to phenomena. Each person has different patterns. Some are neurological and hardwired, some are familial, learned from your parents, and others seem to be even older. That’s karma. So where is this karma actually stored?
One way of looking at how karma is stored is to look at the energy body. Karma can be held in the chakras, in the shape of your energy body. This energy body is not static. Imagine yourself as a column of chakras: one in the forehead, one in the throat, one in the heart, solar plexus, navel, groin or secret place, and others in the palms of your hands and the soles of your feet.
The word “chakra” means “wheel.” Think of a Slinky toy shaped into a circle—something three-dimensional, not just the flat diagrams you often see. These chakras, have little channels extending from them out through the skin, reaching just beyond an arm’s length, and then wrapping around you. They form a sort of egg-shaped swirly cocoon.
This wrapping is caused by self-focused attention by what you habitually pay attention to: your stuff, your friends, your work, your house, your relationships. This habit of attention wraps the experience of reality around you, forming a subjective filter. The way we perceive reality is projected onto the inner surface of this cocoon through the channels. But due to infinite lives, post-traumatic stress, deaths, births, and the countless experiences we and others have endured, these channels have become bent, kinked, frizzy. These kinks and distortions are karmic formations and obscurations, like smudges on a pair of glasses. They keep us from seeing clearly.
For the purpose of this practice, we imagine these karmic formations to be stored in the color and shape of the chakras.
Your map for this practice is the following. In your forehead chakra is a dim, fuzzy white – not pristine white, but a little clouded – A syllable. In your throat chakra is a specific green called chartreuse SU syllable. In your heart chakra—where the apical pulse is actually felt, down near the bottom under the xiphoid process, not up where you salute—is a faded denim blue NRI syllable. Behind your navel is a maroon, red-wine-colored TRI syllable. In the secret place is a khaki or dusty-colored TRAY syllable. And on the soles of your feet is a black chakra—what we jokingly call "bus fart" colored TU syllable.
These chakras are formed in the shapes of Tibetan letters. They are not located on the front of the body but rather inside, just in front of the spine. They’re about the size of your palm and three-dimensional in shape.
Different types of karma affect different chakras. These are similar patterns to the patterns found in the practice of working with emotions.
Karma involving hatred, anger, and fear tends to get stuck in the soles of the feet and the palms of the hands.
Karma involving lust, loneliness, and all the confusions around love tends to get stuck in the chakra of the secret place.
The karma of ignorance—“I don’t want to look, I don’t want to know; this is what I believe and I’m not looking outside it”—gets stuck behind the navel chakra.
In the heart chakra, we find all the overthinking, the internal monologue, the self-doubt, the “Did I choose right? Am I doing it right?” The constant dialogue that puts yourself down gets stuck in the heart chakra.
Competition, jealousy, and comparison get stuck in the throat chakra.
Pride, even the pride of being humble or being a "good practitioner" gets stuck in the forehead chakra.
Now, all actions have complex motivations behind them. One single action might have parts of itself stuck in multiple chakras. But as you begin to unravel these patterns, your patterns of repeating those actions will also begin to unravel. The results of past actions may surface more strongly—emotionally, not usually physically—though it can happen. For example, if you’re working on the soles of your feet chakra, you might notice increased anxiety or anger. It may feel more intense simply because it now has your attention. If it gets too much, you can use the Quan Am practice—reciting Om Mani Padme Hum—to stabilize yourself. Not everyone experiences side effects.
Now, for the actual practice. In your forehead is a white syllable Om. It is bigger, brighter, and whiter than the Ah, which is located slightly below it. From the Om comes a brilliant white light. This white light dries up the chakra you're working with, or all of the chakras. From the red Ah at your throat comes ruby-red light, which also dries up the kinks and cracks in the chankra. In your heart is a blue Hung, the color of the sky at high altitude—darker than what we see at sea level, but also brilliant.
You recite the mantra: Om Ah Hung.
This is the mantra you use. As you say it, the brilliant white, red, and blue lights radiate from your forehead, throat, and heart chakras. In their brightness, they unravel and dry up the karmic patterns within the chakras—like dew vanishing in the morning sun, which is the traditional analogy.
And that is the practice.
You recite the mantra with your mala: 750,000 times. That’s one hundred thousand for each of the six chakras, one hundred thousand for all of them together, and fifty thousand to cover for any mistakes. It goes fast.
Visualization is the key. Most people prefer to focus on one chakra at a time in the beginning. It’s recommended to start at the bottom—with the black Du chakra at the soles of the feet—and do your first hundred thousand there. This is because death is certain and its timing is uncertain. You might as well begin by clearing your hell karma first, then hungry ghost karma, then animal karma, and so on upward. It’s just sensible.
You may, if you wish, visualize all the chakras at once—if your capacity allows. Or you may dry up a chakra entirely in one session and repeat that in future sessions. Alternatively, you may perceive the chakra as slowly drying up and vanishing over the full hundred thousand repetitions. All of these approaches are valid.
By “drying up,” what you actually see in your visualization is the color of the chakra fading, the light diminishing, and the sharp lines that define its shape relaxing. By the end, there is neither shape nor color—just clarity.
Start a session with taking refuge and generating bodhicitta—however you choose to do that, even if it's just a quick thought or flash. Then you do the practice the best you can, and finally you dedicate the merit when you feel you are done.
To bring the inner source of confusion to an end, let us separate samsara from nirvana in an internal manner.
If our internal seeds of confusion have yet to be exhausted, aversion and the other afflictions will continue to plant their respective seeds, which in this case are the habitual patterns associated with suffering.
Because we continue to water these seeds, their habitual patterns will continue to become active again and again, and the continuation of samsara will unfold.
So let us use this time to separate samsara and nirvana from within us.
In this life, from the past until the present, we have accumulated negative karmic and habitual tendencies within our body. This body is produced by ignorance and confusion, and as such the six realms are present within us as seeds.
Because the seeds of the six realms have yet to be purified, we wander continuously throughout the six classes of existence and experience the suffering of samsara. To purify these seeds, as well as the causes that lead our body, speech, and mind into a state of confusion, we need to separate samsara from nirvana.
All the habitual patterns created by karma and afflictions in our past accumulate in six parts of the body. Let us visualize each of these clearly and meditate on the entire range of habit patterns associated with each of the six realms.
To begin, imagine a smoke-colored TU syllable at the bottoms of your feet as the seed of all the hell beings and their habitual patterns.
You can imagine all the qualities of hell beings; fear and anger. A place of endless suffering and anguish. Beings on fire with anger. Anger, anger, anger. It burns. And the cold hells of complete detachment. Not feeling anything. Consumed by their suffering, their anger, they cannot see anything but their suffering. See how the seeds of these qualities are also within you. Have I ever touched this hell realm within myself? Totally consumed with anger, rage, and hurt where I cannot see outside of it. Do I know this realm? Do I know the seeds of this realm within me?
Now, let all of this habit energy of the hell realms be drawn in and dissolve into this smoke-colored TU at the bottoms of your feet.
Next, imagine a khaki TRAY syllable in your secret area as the seed of the hungry ghosts and their habitual patterns.
You can imagine all the qualities of the hungry ghosts; craving and attachment. A realm of unremitting, never satisfied desire. The realm of addiction. Endlessly wanting and needing. See how the seeds of these qualities are also within you. Have I ever touched this hungry ghost realm within myself? Endless wanting, craving, and desiring and never satisfied. It’s never good enough. Never being fulfilled. Do I know this realm? Do I know the seeds of this realm within me?
Now, let all of the habit energy of the hungry ghost realm be drawn in and dissolve into this khaki TRAY in your secret area.
Next, imagine a dark wine red TRI syllable at your navel, the seed of the animals and their habitual patterns.
You can imagine all the qualities of animals; primitive stupidity. The simple primitive mind. Eating and sleeping. Yet always afraid. Living in fear of predators. No self awareness. No insight. See how the seeds of these qualities are also within you. Have I ever touched this animal realm within myself? A simple life of basic primitive existence, without any insight or self awareness. Very basic, without any interest in life or meaning. No concern with insight. Do I know this realm? Do I know the seeds of this realm within me?
Now, let all of the habit energy of the animal realm be drawn in and dissolve into this dark wine red TRI at your navel.
Next, imagine a denim blue NRI syllable in your heart center as the seed of humanity with all of its habitual patterns.
You can imagine all the qualities of humanity; pride & overthinking. A mix of all emotionalities. Pleasure, pain, praise, blame, success, failure, fame and shame. Moving through ignorance, confusion, and desire. Overwhelming overthinking. See how the seeds of these qualities are also within you. Have I ever touched this human realm within myself? A chronic wanting, and dissatisfaction with the world. And yet full of pride, self clinging, and self grasping. Do I know this realm? Do I know the seeds of this realm within me?
Now, let all of the habit energy of the human realm be drawn in and dissolve into this denim blue NRI at your heart center.
Next, imagine a chartreuse green SU syllable in your throat as the seed of the demi-gods, the titans, and their habitual patterns.
You can imagine all the qualities of the titans; envy and jealousy. Strong. Powerful. Always wanting power. Filled with jealousy, envy, and anger. Paranoid to lose their power. See how the seeds of these qualities are also within you. Have I ever touched this titan realm within myself? Always in competition. Always in battle. Living for the fight. For the competition. Always wanting to advance. Always wanting more power even at the expense or harm of others. Do I know this realm? Do I know the seeds of this realm within me?
Now, let all of the habit energy of the titan realm be drawn in and dissolve into this chartreuse green SU in your throat.
Next, imagine a dusty white A syllable at the top of your head as the seed of the gods, the devas, and their habitual patterns.
You can imagine all the qualities of the devas; pride & pleasure. Pleasure, comfort, ease. Life is about beauty. A world focused on how things look. See how the seeds of these qualities are also within you. Have I ever touched this deva realm within myself? A world of pleasure and external beauty. Where discomfort is not allowed. Living in a bubble of controlled comfort. And yet, a deep fear of aging, disease, death and impermanence. Do I know this realm? Do I know the seeds of this realm within me?
Now, let all of the habit energy of the deva realm be drawn in and dissolve into this dusty white A at the top of your head.
Now, we can turn the mind to the factors that are generated to purify these; the three syllables of enlightened body, speech, and mind.
As it is said, Since awareness is the true three kayas, The three kayas manifest as three syllables. Master the power of these syllables and make the separation.
To start, imagine the syllable of the enlightened body at the top of your head, a brilliant white OM. All the virtues of the enlightened body settle on this syllable OM.
At your throat imagine a brilliant red AH, the syllable of enlightened speech. All the virtues of enlightened speech settle on this syllable AH.
And in your heart center, a brilliant blue HUNG, the syllable of enlightened mind. All the virtues of the non-conceptual Buddha mind settle on this syllable HUNG.
Next, out loud, recite OM AH HUNG. Imagine the white, red, and blue light of wisdom blazing forth shining brightly from each of these syllables at the top of your head, throat, and heart center.
This light completely evaporates each of the six syllables of the six realms of samsara, as well as their habit patterns, to the point where nothing more remains.
This light blesses the ordinary body, speech, and mind with the enlightened body, speech, and mind of the Buddhas and Bodhisattvas and floods all the six realms with light.
Imagine that each of these realms, along with its habit patterns, is evaporated into nothingness and that all the causes and results of samsara and the lower realms, both your own and those of others, are refined away.
Imagine that your body then becomes brilliantly clear, like a crystal ball wiped clean.
As you imagine and experience all of this, continue to recite OM AH HUNG for as long and beautifully as you can. Recite one hundred thousand repetitions of OM AH HUNG for each of the seed syllables of the six classes, along with additional accumulations to compensate for shortcomings, bringing the total to seven hundred thousand. This will bring about the signs of the purification of negativity, and ordinary fixated attachment will be purified of its own accord.
From the Clear Expanse:
Whoever trains in the inner discernment
Will eliminate the seeds that cause the confusion of samsara.
This process uses the syllables of the victorious ones' enlightened body, speech, and mind to refine away the six syllables that are the seeds of the six classes of existence. Once this takes place, you will be freed from the various forms of karma that accompany them, which is associated with the happiness and suffering of samsara, and all obstacles will be pacified.
The third section deals with the various signs and omens that occur once this process has effectively purified negativity and obscurations. Signs that physical impurities have been purified include being cleansed, wearing fresh clothes, and the body transforming, such that it resembles a crystal ball or other such thing. As signs that verbal impurities have been purified, many omens may occur. One may hear a conch being blown, for example, or instruments being played and mantras resounding. One may also become eloquent or develop a great vocal range. Signs that mental impurities have been purified include clear senses, finding crystals, jewels, or treasure, and being enthusiastic about virtuous deeds. In brief, the intense fixation associated with ordinary body, speech, and mind will cease and various signs that herald the occurrence of wonderful qualities will manifest. At best, they will occur manifestly. If not, they will occur as visionary experiences, or at the very least, in the dream state. Exert yourself in this practice over and over again until at least some of these signs have actually manifested.
In the Thorough Realization of Empowerment, it is written:
The ordinary body, speech, and mind
Of whomever makes the separation
Will be inseparable from the body, speech, and mind
Of all the buddhas throughout the three times.
On the other hand, if the separation of samsara and nirvana is not made with reference to one's ordinary body, speech, and mind, the causes of samsara will remain and one will end up reversing course from the positive qualities listed above. As stated in the Tantra of Penetrating Sound:
If samsara is not separated from nirvana,
The connection to the three worlds
And ordinary body, speech, and mind will not be severed.
Thus, samsara and nirvana must be separated.
You should practice in this manner assiduously.